My craft supplies and feelings represented fear and pain for me.
I thought for a long time about why I was so upset about crafting during this time. I realized that seeing the piles of stuff I still owned reminded me of the tough time we had just gone through. I realized that I don't want to be a prisoner of debt and of my belongings. I don't want to use any craft supplies unless I absolutely love them. I don't want to store and sort and organize a bunch of craft supplies unless I have an amazing and brilliant plan for them. I don't want to buy any crafts supplies (or anything else for that matter) unless I totally love it. I mean LOVE it. Last week I told you about my “review time” at the checkout counter in stores. I do that every single time. EVERY TIME. I always leave with 25% of the stuff I went to the counter with in the first place. I save receipts so that if I get home and don't still love something, I can take it back quickly and easily.
This week my daughter spent some time at some friends' homes for Spring Break. She came home one of the days and said, “You know, Mom, our house is really clean compared to most people. They have piles everywhere, the kitchen is dirty, and there are bills and mail all over the place.” This made me feel great. I don't have the nicest house but at least I have a clean and less cluttered house. I still have clutter sometimes but I am working on it all the time. (I have to laugh because one of the mean girls who kicked me when I was down was spreading rumors about how my house was really filthy and dirty. Ha! It's pretty funny…)
I had to find a place where I could still create and share my creations but in my own way.
I stopped thinking about what I don't want. I mean, I still think about it but I don't make it my focus,. My focus is that I want to be happy. I want to have fun creating. I want to make things because I like them. I want to make things that make me feel good because they are practical AND beautiful AND useful. All of that comes from me being mindful about purchases, mindful about what I keep, mindful of what I create and why, and mindful of how I keep my space and home.
I made these big mushrooms out of felt to make a centerpiece for my dining room table. I have liked the look of fairy gardens but what the heck am I gonna do with all that clutter and where would I put it so the dog won't chew it? I also have a dining room table that I love and I got for an AMAZING deal but I use it as a place to sort papers and do my accounting. As I made the mushrooms, I thought I could combine the idea with a fairy garden to make a fun centerpiece. I used supplies I had for the bulk of the project; felt from a design team, hot glue, batting from the inside of a worn out bed pillow, wood rounds I had for an upcoming project. Then I went to Joann's and bought some special little things to put in my fairy garden. I joked with Katie for her to stop me if I try to give this stuff away in 6 weeks. I know this is going to be something I will have to store in the off-season. I am okay with that. Xaver came home and laughed at my display. He said it was silly because the mushrooms are huge and that it looked like it came out of Mario Bros. He wasn't being mean. That is what he thought. He said he really liked it. Well, maybe other people think that too. I don't care. I am enjoying my fun fake fairy garden on my dining room table, which I can now use to dine on since I cleaned it off to put the centerpiece in the middle. I get to enjoy the table I HAD TO HAVE eight years ago and I get to look at my fun mushrooms and fairy garden all day from my desk. If nobody on the internet ever saw my mushrooms or said they were cute or ugly, I wouldn't care. I'm enjoying the things I have and making an effort to make something, enjoy it, buy more supplies if I need to for the next project, and repeat.
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